donuts

donuts always remind me of you.

baked kale chips

here's a super easy alternative to regular old potato chips. kale chips! they take about 15 minutes total to make, and the process is super easy.

what you're gonna need: 

• 1 bunch kale
• table salt or sea salt
• olive oil

First, preheat your oven to 350ºF. Chop the kale leaves separate from the stems. Then cut the leaves into bite-size pieces.

Wash the kale leaves thoroughly and dry them. Add about two teaspoons (I just eyeballed it) of olive oil to the leaves, and toss.

Add some table salt to the leaves and toss. You can add some pepper (or any other seasonings) too, if you like.

Line a baking sheet with wax paper and spread the leaves out onto the paper. This doesn't need to be neat. The leaves can touch each other, but don't overlap them, if at all possible. Bake the leaves for about 10-15 minutes. Take them out of the oven right before the edges start to brown. The leaves should be dark green.

hey december

i've been gone for over a month! here's an attempt to change that. i'll definitely be blogging more here after finals are through. yesterday i got a new camera, and i'm SO excited. that's probably an understatement. here's some pictures from my morning.

it was 38 degrees outside this morning when i woke up! that's the coldest it's been all season. i'm happy.

black on black on black today.

caregiver - memoryhouse

currently on repeat.

long's birthday party

these photos were from back in september. i finally got the film developed today!

a bunch of these photos are blurry, whoops!

i love this last picture right here.

overall, it was a fun night. i would write more, but i'm tired. i haven't been up this late in a while. (it's 5:12 am! >.<)

today i realized that i have no idea where my actual journal is... hm.

a post to come about saturday night. paul's surprise went really, really, really well. it was hands down one of the best days (nights) i've ever had. <3

neutral-colored life

with a splash of pink! i must say, i do love my neutrals. but i'm loving pink things lately, especially for school and especially for breast cancer awareness month.

better

a few weeks ago i started on this slow slope downwards into a rut that climaxed two wednesdays ago. i felt really bad and i didn't know where to place it or why i was feeling that way. everything was fine. school was alright, friends were awesome, family was okay, paul and i were doing wonderfully, but nonetheless i still felt sad. 

today was so beautiful outside, it was about 70 degrees, sunny, and with a breeze. i had a test in management today, and even though it was a little bit harder than i expected, i think it's safe to say i'm feeling leagues better. i have another test thursday which i'm pretty scared about, just because of the sheer volume of information that it's covering. hopefully i can pass that one. i need to. i'm scared though.

paul's birthday is also on thursday which i'm excited about, he's turning 23! i have a big surprise planned out for him on saturday, which i'm super super excited about and i just hope that it doesn't rain. i'm not gonna put any details on here either if in some case he's reading this (in which case... hi.). 

anyway, i'm excited about this weekend and hopefully i can be superwoman tomorrow and study a ton. today i got a new camera in the mail and i'm so stoked to start taking it everywhere with me. i also (as you can see) had a little self-portrait therapy at the end of my asthma study session. i like it, especially since i haven't taken proper photos of myself in a while.

cheers!

white slim angel

Can't wait to get this baby in the mail tomorrow.

No more excuses of me not taking my camera places. This one is going with me everywhere!

photo by tingting huang

pumpkin

today in class i found myself craving paul's mom's pumpkin pie. just writing this is making me salivate. oye.


photo by caroline fm.

dialysis

"don't let anyone underestimate you."

photo by hesho

happy.

oh how i wish i could've captured that moment on film. i don't think my words are enough, either. i've been searching for a picture to accompany this post, but nothing quite cuts it like it should. this'll have to do.

i drove to your house. it was raining moderately outside, and we went out to go get sushi for dinner. to go. we waited in the restaurant and watched the fish in the aquarium dart back and forth. we went back in my car, and i drove us back. you had your arm around me as i drove. we were stopped at a light, and i looked over at you and you looked at me, and a smile unfolded on both of our faces. a quiet, earnest smile.

for as long as i can remember, i haven't been able to just smile at someone like that and have them smile back at me. i always end up laughing. and i know we've both smiled at each other like that before, but it's just the fact that we can.
i've never loved anyone like i love you.

there are just some moments i wish i could have captured on film. but maybe there are some moments too beautiful to be captured by anything but our hearts.


12 fingers - young the giant
"your heart beats just like i wanted it to, and you want it too."


where i thought i met the angels - the tallest man on earth
i came across this song today. the guitar is perfect for quiet nights and reminiscing.


photo by sarak hellas.

it's been a while since i've written anything. so long ago that, i think the last time i wrote anything poem-like was in 2009. anyway, i scribbled this down last night. i kinda like it. bear with me.

tapioca

sometimes you just need to surprise your boyfriend with tapioca and thai tea (and pull up to his house and notice that he's outside lifting weights). sweaty kisses are better than no kisses at all.

oh how i wish i brought my camera. i hate having this feeling.

photo by chibi mech.

retreat

every once in a while, i come to this blog as a retreat from other places. it's quiet here, and i feel like it's a little secret. i have a lot (i think, too much, actually) of followers on tumblr, and i don't feel like i can really say much about myself without exposing myself. i don't like that. there's no way i'm going to start saying junk on facebook, since that site is so tacky. here, i feel better. i have a small audience. only a few people know about this blog, and i think i'll keep it that way. plus, i doubt that the people on tumblr following me actually click the link to this blog. it's nice.

anyway, i've been thinking about a few things that i need to put into work.

• i need to start taking more pictures. with my digital and with my film.
• with that being said, i actually need to get film developed. i have two complete rolls sitting on my dresser and one more in my camera that's almost complete and by then, i'll have three rolls. i've been so diligent before about not letting the rolls pile up because i know how bad that gets. (i had about 14 rolls waiting to get developed last december, oy) but. the walgreens that i go to for film processing was shut down for about a month and a half because of a fire, so i was stuck. now it's open again, but for some reason, i'm skeptical about going back because i have this fear that the developing won't be the same. i just don't want to fuck up my film. or rather, have them fuck up my film.
• use this blog a little more. especially with more personal posts. i have to have some outlet, right? tumblr and facebook aren't really an option anymore.

both photos by barbara & michael leisgen: mimesis, 1970s

morning surprises

woke up early to go to the bank, buy you donuts (one glazed, one bavarian cream-filled) (i wanted to surprise you), and drop off this film. came by your house and you opened the door, eating a piece of toast with peanut butter smeared all over it. i walked into your kitchen and said "i got something for you!" and when i showed you the little bag of donuts, you looked so happy yet so upset that you already ate. i guess surprises don't always have to work our flawlessly, just the intent matters in the end.